You have the audacity
to sigh and roll your eyes at me
when I seem a little distant
or take some time to come when you call for me?
After you hid me in your closet
refused to be heard with me in public;
After you left me
shunned and neglected me;
And after all those years
When you wouldn’t speak with me
even when I called
you expect me to leap back wholeheartedly
the moment you want me to be your little side bitch?
Well forgive me
if I take some time to warm up to the idea
If I have some trepidations
about touching your lips again.
Because bitch, I am beautiful.
Do you know how many artists
have drawn testaments to my infinite curves?
How many poets have blown their minds
just trying to channel the shades
of sonics and meaning
resonating from my every syllable?
And the bits of me that felt too rough for your mouth—
that’s the stuff that music is built upon.
You had your chance with me, but do you even know what you turned down?
Nadia, ya habibti
You say you miss me
And I want to believe you
We can talk, and see where this goes
But I have to take this slow.